Good evening. I hope everyone powered through their Monday.
As I mentioned a few days ago, my life has taken a couple rapid turns in the recent past. While I remained silent for a little while in the name of professionalism, I want to put honesty first now that all of the loose ends are tied.
I left my job.
Abrupt? Yes. Impulsive? Perhaps. Foolish? By no means. While I’ve turned into a spontaneous woman (unbelievable given the careful girl I once was), I still think things through… always. I call my life a whirlwind romance because it is, indeed, romantic. Romantic in the sense that I follow my passions and dreams and go forth instead of fretting over the present or especially the past. If something isn’t satisfying to me, and I feel that it is wrong in any way, I change it…period. No one is going to make difficult decisions for you. And at the end of the day, you are the only person that you have to answer to. Am I suggesting you up and quit your job if you’re having a bad day? No, not at all. However, if you are chronically unhappy and do not feel fulfilled, it is something to think about.
I’m sure you’re thinking “Well, that’s all well and good, but how are you going to put those pricey meals on the table?”
Well, the amazing people at the school for which I substituted last year heard my story, and by the grace of some higher power were similarly in need of me, too. So I’m back at it (substitute teaching, that is) and I couldn’t be happier.
Next steps? Well, I’ve realized, now, that teaching is a true love of mine. Whether this means teaching in the conventional sense or something more detailed, we will find out.
For now, my application is in for Teach for America. It is a long shot, but I have to try. I will hear this week whether or not I move on to the next round. If it doesn’t happen, that’s okay, too…I know, then, that it wasn’t the right career move for me and I’ll re-evaluate.
I’ve very content and frankly proud of my decision. Not long ago, I would have never had the nerve to leave a job that I thought was ‘best’ for me (in the career sense). Now, as I’ve learned a lot about myself and have settled in my own skin, I follow my heart and trust that the part of me that is rational and a planner, with figure out the logistics in a timely manner.
Thank you for listening. I’ve spoken with a few people about this and most were incredibly supportive. Not everyone, but most. And the fact of the matter is, decisions like these are made to improve your life and your ability to make a positive impact on the world, not to shape the judgment of others.
Tonight, I took the advice of the wise (on more matters than just cooking and Paris) Gillian, and made Hoisin Glazed Cod. It was absolutely delicious, if I do say so myself. It was…perfect. It flaked beautifully and was incredibly succulent. A romantic meal for certain.
Hoisin Glazed Cod with Bok Choy and Pearled Couscous
1 piece fresh cod (not pre-frozen) 3/4lb
1/4 c. hoisin sauce (found in the Asian food section of your supermarket)
3T Sesame oil
1 head (~1 1/2 l b) bok choy (cleaned and sliced into 1 inch pieces)
2 T rice vinegar
1/4 c. white wine
1 box Near East Pearled Couscous (made w/ 1T oil) made according to package directions.
To cook Cod:
Briefly marinate in Hoisin sauce. Meanwhile, heat oil over medium-high heat. Once hot, add pieces of Cod to pan. Sear about 3 minutes on each side (the fish will turn white about half way up-FLIP, the remainder will turn white. Flake a bit away to ensure done. No worries if it seems a little raw in the center- it will finish cooking once removed and covered with tin foil. Try your hardest not to overcook. This is an art– it takes a little while to perfect searing-especially with this fish). Remove and place on plate, cover with tin.
To make Bok Choy:
Once fish is removed, add vinegar and wine to scrap bits off bottom. Add bok choy and toss with liquid. Cover and cook (~5-7 minutes) until white part is easily pierced with fork.
Serve with couscous.
This is a truly memorable meal that you must try at once… preferably with someone special, but perfectly suitable for a solo-evening.