The blustery cold, one foot and still falling snow time of year…yeah, the very same. This is winter. You know a part of me really does love it. I bundle up in my ski wear that hasn’t been used since last year and trudge through the silent streets of the city. I get embarrassingly jealous when I see kids having the time of their lives having been told school is closed for the day as I walk to work.
I haven’t had much to say lately which is really pretty rare, since oftentimes I talk about nothing of importance and perhaps that’s what I’m doing today. I know I said Monday would be my Me day but this week has been overwhelming so it’s Wednesday and here I am.
What I love about this time of year is it’s a make or break time- by that I mean, you’re either going to fall victim to the Winter blues or rise up and be the person you want to be and let those blues be your strength, your inspiration. That sounds wonderful in theory but in fact it’s hard as hell to execute. I suppose that’s why I’m saying it out loud! How do you do it?
I pledged to write more this year, privately I mean, and for the first time in months I did so on the train in to work. It felt good to just write and re-read and not feel self conscious doing so. It helps in my effort to really experience my life and not be wishing and hoping for the next great thing.
I’m teaching myself to relish in the positive parts of now, not dwell on all that’s off about it. I’ll be honest it’s tough for me. But that is the person I want to become… I believe in her and her capability to live her life that way so I will try. Luke said it so right at the dinner table the other night…we have so much to be grateful for.